How fortunate you all are to get better.
August 29, 2015
Well I am entering the month that will include my one year anniversary to my last surgery; the surgery of which the surgeon said, “this was simple and so will take less time to get over.” Much to his puzzlement, I still walk only with the aid of Nucynta and Gabapintine. The pain doctors have placed me on this routine and, you know, I thank them, because those are the best hours, besides sleeping, that I have. I take my meds first thing in the morning and scooter off to work, and while on the distracting scooter ride, I love the scooter and am quite sure I would love the ride even if I knew it would end in my death, they take their desired affect, so when I get to work, I feel serviceable. It is on the weekends that I am having difficulties, because I have more time and I feel the hangover of the meds and so don’t want to juice up again. Of course when I respond this way, my heel is laying in wait, and springs into action with its cries of ‘listen to me’, ‘I have been ignored’ pain. Any how it is now the weekend, so you know how I feel, and I am imagining that I know how you feel, or at least many of you (because I have read your posts); hopeful as you are in your every increasing mobility and strength. So I just felt the need to remind you, to be patient and, if possible, enjoy your recovery, because some of us are not. I no doubt know, rationally, that irrationally this sour attitude does not help in it, but this has been a hard and painful four years, and, still like a child, I want it to come to a recuperative end, but always seem to be asking myself, “why am I not getting better like all those other fortunate folks?”
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1. donna | September 4th, 2015 at 6:54 pm
You said; “I no doubt know, rationally, that irrationally this sour attitude does not help in it, but this has been a hard and painful four years, and, still like a child, I want it to come to a recuperative end, but always seem to be asking myself, “why am I not getting better like all those other fortunate folks?”
I’d suggest you work on your emotional/mental state and see how that effects your experience.
“what we resist, persists”…that doesn’t mean you can’t take action, sometimes we need to stop resisting, surrender to what is & from that place of allowing it all to be as it is, well, because it is that way…then answers come, solutions come, peace comes.
As always my best to you.