I’m 3/4 of the way through Phase 1 of recovery, the cast. Looking forward to the next phase in a little over a week, THE BOOT. I’m not sure what the doc will allow me to do weight bearing wise but mentally I feel like THE BOOT will be reallllllly beneficial for my psychological recovery. I was down in the dumps a little this morning again thinking about this injury. I really do feel like it is the psychological part that is hardest for me. My son has been acting out at preschool. He is the most mild tempered, sweet little boy (really he is, not just saying that because I’m his mom). His teacher suggested he is acting out partly because of my injury and it made me feel soo awful and helpless even if she may be right. Mentally I’m also worried about a rerupture even though I know it is a rarity to occur. So…it’s the mental piece I need to work on! It is weird. I had a horrific mountain bike accident about 3 years back. I snapped my 2 forearm bones on my right side. Screws and plates in there, etc. Total recovery rehab time 2 months, back on my bike by month 3. I have now forgotten about the injury except as a bragging right, so I know I have the strength to recover mentally and physically from injury, I just need to find that strength now.
I got outside with my sister today and she opened up our gazebo so I have a nice place to sit outside. I relaxed in the sun and daydreamed about all the things I KNOW for certain I will be able to do this spring and summer. I will go visit my dad in Sedona in about a month, I will return to teaching 5th grade, I will be able to play outdoors with my children and chase them. I’ll go to our camp in northern Maine and swim across the cove and back like I usually do. And I’m sure I’ll get on my mountain bike but for some reason that isn’t as important to me at the moment.
Hard morning, great afternoon!