Jul 28 2008
Nothing new; over 100 days(but who’s countin’); still a hole; still here
Hey there! Well, as you look at our names on the left it’s kind of in order of when we signed up for this awesome blog. Notice all the 2 shoes and FWB around my name. Oh well. For those newly ruptured, maybe I’ll be on your course. Yep, I’m still here…past 100 days but who is really counting at this point. I’m about to wear out my 2nd set of crutches…crutches since April 6th when ruptured..surgery April 15th, blah blah blah wah wah wah.
I haven’t updated in a while because the same ole for me. At Wound Ctr today the wound hasn’t gotten smaller over the last week and a half so we are going to put a 2nd integra graft on this Thursday. My hole is smaller than it was…I’ll have to get some new pics up on the site…but, it’s still a hole. I think I’ll sing, A Hole is still a Hole….. I did go to Florida on “Vacation” last week. While it was nice for a change of scenery…I couldn’t go down to the beach bec I couldn’t get sand in my wound. I couldn’t get in the pool, but I got to sit outside the pool…no shade ANYWHERE at the pool and watch my kids with my own pool of sweat dripping down me. So, it wasn’t the vacation that I’d hoped for, but that’s the way it is. New news: My ortho wants me to put more and more weight on my foot. It’s so vague..I’m having a hard time deciding how much to do. Earlier today I used one crutch under my good side and walked like that. Then, for a few minutes I used no crutches. I can’t go to rehab with my wound, so I’m trying to figure out how to “train” or strengthen my bad leg to take more and more weight as I walk. I find that when I use both crutches I don’t put any weight on my leg at all…so, that’s not good. I never would have thought I’d be where I am. Oh well….I know each of us has a differnt road, some longer, some shorter. I just didn’t think I’d be marathoning it around the world instead of just around NYC. Run Forrest Run. Since this journey, my mind is a little out of sorts….I’ve locked my keys in my car twice (and, my entire life I’m maybe done it once). You know how you get out of your car typically then use the keyless entry and lock it. Well, since the whole crutch thing I take the keys out of the ignition, lock the car by pressing the lock button and I’m supposed to put said keys in my purse…well, sometimes they end up in the middle console. It’s just a lot of things to think about. I’m really OVER OVER OVER all of this. Summer has been blown. …I mean…April 6th rupture. YIKES! OK, I haven’t reruptured so that’s a plus. I haven’t performed a self-amputation on my leg with my kids rounded scissors yet either so that’s good. I can’t help but just shake my head at all of this. I know I’ll be whole again SOME day…just may be a long while from now. So, good night everyone. Sleep tight. I’ll update again with new pics and my new integra graft.