Feb 22 2012
Up til my appointment with the Orthopedic surgeon, I don’t think I accepted reality just quite yet. I was still clinging on to the hope that maybe it was a partial tear and recovery wouldn’t take as long.
My father asked me about my appointment when I got home, and it wasn’t when I told him that it would take 6 to 12 months for a full recovery that it kind of sunk in. I couldn’t look my dad in the eye for the rest of the conversation.
I set some goals that I was eager to complete this year, and I found it quite disappointing that they were going to have to wait. Some of them were to: run a marathon in May; complete Tough Mudder with some close friends; learn to rock climb and mountaineer; and go backpacking in Southeast Asia in July and August. Also I did not like the idea that I was going to be useless at work for a good while (I’m in the Army Reserves).
It was annoying; in my head I knew it was not a big deal, there are so many people with REAL problems. But here I was letting these negative thoughts seep into my mind.
So I do what I always do when I began to whine about life: slap myself, tell myself to stop being an asshole, and watch something inspirational.
I actually watched this video again that day: Amy Purdy: Living Beyond Limits
That definitely did it. I began to stop thinking about what I couldn’t do anymore, but what I could still do. I stopped thinking about what goals I couldn’t complete anymore, but what new goals for me to set. And though I might become weaker physically, I knew to be sure to capitalize on this challenge and grow stronger mentally and emotionally.
Anyways you’ll have to pardon me for that last part, it was quite corny. But I am in high spirits these days, and it’s definitely better on this side. Continue Reading »