Reflections on the past 16 weeks
February 13, 2017 - The rupture was 16 weeks ago today and the day that put a huge hiccup in my life. I remember it like it was yesterday, but still can’t believe how far things have come. I haven’t been to this site for a while - I’ve been catching up on all the stuff around the house that I could not do until the past month. This post may be a bit of a ramble but i just wanted to put some things down that may help the hopelessness and desperation that newly ruptured folks may be experiencing.
I finished my last PT session this morning. Honestly, I think I could have been done earlier, but I went along with the program. I can walk without a limp now and am completely functional (just 4 months post rupture). The ankle is still sometimes stiff, sometimes it aches, but for the most part, I can do what I want. Stairs have not been an issue for the past month - that was a pain in that just over a month ago I went to an outdoor concert where I had to do the stairs sideways and could not walk over the hill to the second stage to see some of the bands. It is amazing how fast progress comes. For you newbies, there is hope!!
My physical therapist had me jogging on a treadmill about 3 weeks ago, but when I went in for my final Dr. recheck, he said no way did he want me jogging yet. I see some others are already jogging - I guess my Dr. is conservative. I’ll start up with the jogging again in a month. I still have the fear of re-rupture ever present in my mind - I wonder when that is going to be a distant memory.
I will say that over the past month I am not dog tired like I was for the first couple of months and my ankle isn’t swelling like it used to. Life is getting back to normal. I’ve been working my legs out some more in the gym the past month and the strength is getting better, but not working them for 3 months really gets you behind.
For those of you that recently ruptured your tendon…. HANG IN THERE!! It will get better. The first month of nonweightbearing SUCKS. The dependence on others, the exhaustion, the feeling of being cramped / claustrophobic in the cast, crawling out of the shower to a chair, getting out of bed in the morning to go to the restroom, driving, will all get better. The second month in the boot SUCKS (but not as bad as the first month). At least you can be more mobile, but I was still really tired and sore in it. Once you get to wearing 2 shoes - that’s when things will start getting better RAPIDLY. The whole process seemed to drag on for the first two months, but after that - things will improve quickly.
There will be good days and there will be bad days, but week to week you will see improvement. Do what your Dr. and physical therapist say, do your exercises, don’t do anything stupid (I did a few dumb things but nothing happened thank goodness), and you will get better. I realize I am not 100%, but I am so functional right now it doesn’t bother me. The days of my helplessness and desperation are done and those feelings are a distant memory. I NEVER want to go through this injury again nor do I wish it upon my worst enemy. The light at the end of the tunnel is big and bright now - and I look forward to running on the beach in a month (with smaller legs than I’m used to - but who cares!). HANG IN THERE - YOU WILL GET BETTER! Peace out!! Chris