I think I’m going insane

Everyday is the same.  I wake up, eat breakfast, do a couple of sudoku puzzles, peruse the internet, watch some tv, eat a snack, play some video games, maybe talk on the phone, eat some dinner, do some physical therapy exercises, watch more tv/play more video games/peruse the internet a little longer, go to sleep.  The monotony is occasionally broken up by a visit from a friend or relative which may include going out to watch a movie or something but all in all I wake up every morning (afternoon?) with the feeling that there is nothing to look forward to in the day.  I hate this injury.  I just want to go for a run outside and play some basketball and contrary to my very first post, I really want to go back to work and raise some hell on the streets.  Oh well, one day at a time.  Really, I do feel fortunate I am afforded the luxury to sit around and do nothing all day and not have to worry about paying the bills or even paying for the medical bills.  I have not taking a sick day or a vacation in 3 years and an awesome health insurance plan to thank for that.

As for the actual recovery, I’ve been on partial weight bearing for about a week, but I’ve been too lazy to update (go figure).  I’m not as thrilled as I thought I would be at this point probably because it isn’t actually walking.  In fact, I get around a lot faster on crutches then limping around trying to control the weight I put on my foot so I tend to cheat and not partially weight bear.  I’ve been going to physical therapy once a week for the past 3 weeks.  My protocol for the first week was simple range of motion exercises and strength exercises (isometrics and toe curls with a towel - I hate toe curls!  I could barely do them).  For the second week I was instructed to do more range of motion exercises and some stretches in a towel.  Strength exercises progressed to using a rubberband to provide some resistance and more isometrics.  For conditioning I was allowed to start using an exercise bike with minimal resistance for 7-12 minutes.  Haha when I first started I could barely pedal the darn thing fast enough to keep it on.  For the third (and current) week I have been continuing the range of motion exercises and added a standing calf stretch.  The strength exercises are more of the same just with more repetitions.  The cycling has been increased to 20 minutes a day.  I’ve been increasing the resistance on the bike steadily as my foot allows and boy does it feel good to work up a sweat.

I hate to post negativity but I really think I’ve had it with this injury.  I am sooooooo grateful for this community.  Reading other people’s thoughts and experiences has probably been the only thing keeping me sane.

P.S.  I really really really hate the big, ugly, heavy boot but I just can’t live without the darn thing!  Hahah

4 Responses to “I think I’m going insane”

  1. Previously I posted in June ‘I think ‘Im cracking up’ which I thought I was at the time. But, do not despair it will improve. Your lucky presumably because you are taller than me (I am only just over 5′ tall), we have a bike at home and I have to ask my husband/son to get me on it to cycle, but I can only just reach the pedal with my bad leg even with the seat at the lowest level.

    I try and do some every day but not sure if trying to pedal without being able to put the whole food on the pedal is a good idea really.

    The Olympics has been great, even though I am in work I am watching live cycling on BBC. We went to watch the World Cycling Chapionships in Manchester in March when I first hurt my leg and before I was diagnosed with achilles, so I was hobbling about the velodrome.

    Keep your chin up good times will come again…


  2. i know exactly how you feel ( take a look at my post week three) it happens to us all but it will pass , focus on the fact you will recover some people are less fortunate as we are . im nearly 9 wks post op and the last 3 wks have been amazing . ive gone from pwb to fwb to no boot indoors my physio starts tomorrow but i feel i only need it to strengthen my calf . i do get swelling after being out all day . my surgeon said it was the worst tear he has had to repair he must have done an excellent job for my recovery to be so quick . i had visions of being laid up for 6 months !!!!!!!!!! im looking forward to going back to work in 3 weeks and mostly swimming which is the one thing im not allowed to do ( incase i slip ? ) so dont feel down , your recovery may just come in leaps and bounds (pardon the pun )good luck and quick heeling x nerys

  3. I’m only just in week 3, so have another 2 weeks 6 days before my solid plaster is off.
    I managed to get a lift into my office job so can stay immobile most of the day (although just had a meeting the other end of the building and am now shattered after crutching it all the way there and back). I consoled myself yesterday that it is the noughties as pre-ninities in the UK we had 4 TV channels and no internet.

    Keep smiling,

  4. I am sure you don’t want to hear this but hang in there. There will be moments of despair that we have to go through. This is a very challenging time….such is life I guess.

    I am 2 weeks into this ordeal and all I want to do is play soccer on my team. Plus the weather is amazing UGH… I am sure I will have a melt down along the way, when that time comes, make sure PICK MY ASS UP!!!

    One less day


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