Tomorrow is 5 weeks…

Posted on July 9th, 2013 in Uncategorized by 1shann

Today I got my last cast and was told to begin PWB. I should go into a boot next week and have a PT appt the following week. Milestones, right?  I should be happy and a movin and a groovin… But it has been a heavy day. The past week had felt like progress. Less swelling & need to have cast elevated constantly. I also had become much more comfortable on my crutches. Things finally had started to feel normal and I could see the light at the end of the tunnel.

The nurses all remarked that I seemed so much better today at my appt. (This might have something to do with the fact that I was not crying, hissing or growling this time round). However, something changed when my foot was released from the cast and I was able to give it a good scrub and a rub. It felt so weird. So foreign. So….. Icky. I was scared.

now I am back at home. As I step gingerly on my tingly yet numb foot it feels so wrong. Not painful, just wrong. I am back in my weepy dark mindset and it is strong enough that I am going to let myself wallow in it tonight. Tomorrow I will take a deep sigh & will  hop back on the mean old  Achilles ‘horse’ and will keep moving forward but right now it just feel like this is never going to end….

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  1. brokendad said,

    on July 9th, 2013 at 8:20 pm

    Going to a new phase is frustrations. Just when you think, I got this, you go to square one of a new phase. But… you did get the hang of the crutches, the NWB, and all the other phases, so… I have no doubt you will get the hang of this phase as well. It may be a long journey, but it is shorter than when you began.

  2. lodinpdx said,

    on July 9th, 2013 at 9:23 pm

    Oh I can so relate!! And I have cried so much in the last 6 weeks and 5 days!!

    I would bet that they angle of your new cast is less than that of the old. Every “new” thing has put me back. I was told at week 3 to take a wedge out AND start PWB. So that day I took out a wedge - ouch and started doing laps in the house with PWB. That night I was in so much pain that I took a valium to sleep (and stop crying??) The stretch alone is enough for one day. You will see a very common theme on this road to recovery is two steps forward generally means one step back!

    Good luck!

  3. kellygirl said,

    on July 10th, 2013 at 3:05 am

    This injury is wrought with challenges. It seems every time we get used to one thing, something else happens to make us have to re-adjust. You are not alone! I felt the same way when the cast was removed–it was icky and scary. It does get better though–I no longer feel like a stiff breeze will blow my foot off. Hope that you are back on the Achilles horse :)

  4. micah1 said,

    on July 10th, 2013 at 8:56 am

    At the appointment where I went from a boot to 2 shoes I also had little cry, I was scared and also relieved that The Big Day had finally come. I had to be coaxed to walk and yes it did feel so weird, but within a day I was a little more confident, and more the next and so on.
    Now at 16 weeks I remain frustrated, maddened that a 2 mile walk still leaves me suffering the next day, but also busy and enjoying each improvement, I know now from experience that in another month that walk will be fine, and its the 4 mile walk or who knows, maybe the 6 mile walk :-)) that will make the leg angry. Keep at it, we’ll all get there eventually, perhaps we could be an Olympic 4 x 4 relay team…

  5. 1shann said,

    on July 10th, 2013 at 12:19 pm

    Oh goodness! Thank you all for sharing and for the encouragement. I am feeling much more ‘ready’ to move forward today. Today I also found out that I was approved for short term disability which has taken a huge load off of my mind as I had virtually no savings and I will not be able to return to work for a number of weeks. Foot feels better today but I am going to go easy on it as the stretch of last week’s cast change took 2 days to catch up with me. I’ll probably watch my 10,000 th episode of Criminal Minds, catch up on paperwork and work on some long unattended chores that I am have learning to modify over the past couple of weeks… ;)

  6. Louise Bustard said,

    on July 10th, 2013 at 12:58 pm

    Glad to hear you’re feeling more optimistic! As said by the others, this is a challenging injury. I ‘too’ am facing a few challenges weaning into ‘two’ shoes so can certainly relate to the frustration of the slow progress. I’m so terrified of re- rupturing, I walk around as though an invalid. That being said, I am remembering what others have said and am ‘going slowly’ and am being careful. Thankfully I put my boot on when I went outside to inspect our trailer. Good thing too as I stepped down onto uneven ground and got quite a jolt. Had I not been wearing the boot, I know it would have been a re-rupture. As it was, I did have soreness and the fear began to creep in… So, celebrate the successes but keep treading CAREFULLY!

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